I just finished midterms so now I’m playing catch-up with all my blogs! After coming back from Phuket, I was not ready to go back to school haha. Like honestly what even is school work? But this week was kind of rocky emotionally and there were days where I felt lonely but I think it might just be the middle of the semester that’s getting to me hehe. But without further ado, let’s get started 🙂
2/07/16 Going to Varsity Christian Fellowship
The Tuesday I got back from Phuket, I went to class and then at night I went to VCF. That night we talked about the history of the church and how it went from Roman Catholicism to Protestantism and to all the other sects that we have today. It was interesting because although we have churches today that preach the gospel in its entirety, there’s also a lot of churches who are too charismatic to the point where they preach a gospel of prosperity. And along with it a slew of non-Christian values. I’m still confused on how we can still have so many sects today and still call each one (well for the most part) Christian. But I guess as long as it has the main pillars of Christianity–the Trinity, the life, death and resurrection of Jesus and salvation through grace–then it should be sound. But afterwards I just headed home!
Also side note, this Singaporean snack is so good. I have no idea what it is but it’s so tasty.
2/08/16 Taking a Shower in the Rain
When I got out of my Chinese class, it was raining like no other. And although I told myself to start carrying my umbrella with me, I didn’t that day. And when it rained, it poured. After taking the bus back to Utown, I was pretty much drenched from head to toe. At one point, I just accepted the fact that I couldn’t stay dry and just walked through the rain lol. The thing about Singapore weather is that it’s pretty unpredictable. It has like a 98% of thunder storming every time I check the weather app. And although it’s not accurate, we do get random thunder and rain like every couple of hours on some days. I wish I had a picture but I do have a video so I’ll put it in my vlog!
2/09/16 Eating Strawberry Prata with Austin!
I just went to class today and learned about Markov Chains. lol it’s so boring and I feel like half the time I’m not going to use anything I learn in my classes. But maybe that’s just me complaining about school 😛
That night at like 11:30 though, I got food with my friend Austin! He lives one floor above me and he’s also on exchange through Georgia Tech. He was feeling the midnight munchies so we walked to a street with 24-hour food shops close to campus. When we got there, there were still so many students in the restaurants. In Singapore, supper is such a big deal and everyone goes out to eat after class. I feel like their students don’t sleep until 2 or 3 lol. We decided to get Indian food and I tried a strawberry prata for the first time. Prata is basically a fried flat bread and it’s usually served with mutton (sheep) curry or chicken curry. It tasted exactly like an artificial strawberry with bread haha. And then I also had a winter melon drink with it that was suuper sweet. But the late night food was pretty solid 🙂
2/10/16 Donating Blood and Beloved Play
Donating blood is something that’s really important! A lot of people (myself included) don’t realize how the platelets and blood you donate go to people who need heart surgeries, organ implants and who are undergoing treatment for leukemia as well as a plethora of other needs. But yeah, it’s something that I feel I can freely give and I haven’t been able to since I got back from China 2 summers ago. So my roommate Kanaha and I decided to do it in Singapore! And sadly only 1.87% of Singapore’s population donates 😦 But yeah during the donation, they gave us mats to sit on and a little stress ball to squeeze as the blood was pumping. The only sad part was that I hate needles and I get really light headed when I see them. So I almost fainted afterwards lol. But I just lied down and the nurse gave me some water and I ate some crackers afterwards so twas all good.
Moral of the story, give blood if you can! It doesn’t cost you anything but it can save someone’s life 🙂
That night, VCF put on a skit in light of valentine’s day that talked about what love was. The whole skit centered around how a mom left her daughter and husband because she didn’t feel the love anymore. And I think it was a great reminder to me that love is not just a feeling but rather an action. That initial attraction might definitely be a feeling but in order to truly love someone, you have to choose to care for them over your inconveniences and differences. And love is something that should be given unconditionally and not as an exchange for someone else’s love.
That night, Helen, Yurie and I went home and then we had a deep talk about what love was and how to express love in different ways. From what I’ve observed, I think Helen shows love without using words. And Kanaha by showing concern. And Yurie by asking “are you okay?” And Helen said sometimes words aren’t necessary to show love because you can feel it. I said that yes although people feel love differently and there might not be a need for a verbal affirmation, I think words have power so why not use their power to convey love to other people? I think at least for me, when you tell me something explicitly I understand it so much better because there’s no second guessing. And then I couldn’t help but think about all the instances when the person I loved and the person who loved me knew we loved each other. Or is love not something that you need to define? Haha this is getting sappy but idk food for thought I guess.
Haha all in all, I love our deep talks. I think it’s gotten to a point where if we’re all in the living room sitting on the couch, you know some deep stuff is gonna go down ❤ (lol if you’re reading this Helen).
2/11/16 Eating Korean Barbecue in Johor Bahru, Malaysia and Feeling Down
Today we took a yellow bus to the border of Singapore, went through customs and then crossed over to Malaysia. It took about 2 hours to get there and once we got there, we got food at a Korean Barbecue place and it was pretty good. Unlike traditional KBBQ, the waiter cut all the meat for us and came back 6-7 times to cook it for us. I felt so bad because it was so hot and he only had so much leg room to stand over the hot heat and make our meal for us. But that food was good and then we got free ice cream afterwards!
Later, we went to a mall and just shopped around. I bought some tiger balm (the asian equivalent of all ointment creams) You have an itch? Tiger balm. Stuffy nose? Tiger balm. Joint pain? Tiger bam. Seriously it works for everything. After the mall, we waited for the bus to come pick us up but it was so unsettling because there was no bus stop so we just found people who looked like they were gathering for something and then joined them, hoping a yellow bus would take us back to Singapore. It was funny because on our way through immigration, Helen and Yurie got separated from Kanaha and I. They ended up taking a bus back to Singapore and thought we had gotten on right after them. But sadly that was not the case. So when Kanaha and I came out, we were like wow they left us. Haha but it turned out to be a misunderstanding and it was just funny.
However, this morning I woke up and I was just not feeling it. I didn’t really talk throughout the whole day and my roommates were worried because they didn’t know what was wrong with me haha. I think the conversation about love from last night reminded me of instances when I didn’t feel loved. Especially when I was going through depression, thoughts of me being worthless were so constant that it became a reality. And when I saw my roommates getting along fine without me, I was like oh I’m not important and I guess they don’t really need me to have fun. And it just sucked because I was trapped in this deep hole of self-pity and I couldn’t get out by myself. But I ended up talking to Helen about it and she said that my roommates were worried about me because I was dead the whole day. And that it’d be sad if we lost each other as friends.
And I guess it made me realize that love is not like a gauge-it does not run empty once it is “used” on a certain number of people. And although human love can be exhausted at a certain point, I think God’s love can replenish us again and again without ever running out.
So yeah, I love my roommates ❤
2/12/16 Eng’s Noodles House
After church on Sunday, I went to the East side of Singapore (where all the good food is supposedly) to meet up with Shi Juen for lunch. She took me to this Noodles House that was apparently really famous and was started back in the 1970’s. I think it was alright and it wasn’t like the best wonton noodle soup that I’ve had. But the wontons were so crunchy and awesome so I have to give them that. Then afterwards, we went inside the mall and got shaved ice with some random toppings! I was like a Taiwanese shaved ice but without the flavored ice…and different toppings haha.
But that’s my week! Definitely a lot quieter than when I went to Phuket but nonetheless still filled with lots of hanging outs and food 🙂 lol also guys, sometimes I feel like I’m writing in my journal and some of these thoughts just come out. So if it’s too much, please let me know.
- Pray against negative thoughts because they’re not coming from God!
What I’m Thankful For:
- People who continue to love me even though I might not see it at first 🙂
All of me,
Humans of NUS: Austin Windsor
So Austin is someone who I met in my ST3247 Simulations class and I’m so glad that I did. He’s originally from the Georgia Institute of Technology and he also studies ISE and is in his 3rd year of college. I have so much to be thankful to him for because without him, who knows how much more lost I’d be in that class. He always takes time to explain difficult concepts and goes out of his way to make sure those around him understand what’s going on. I think I’ve asked him to explain things so many times now that I can clearly hear his “you see?” in my head every now and then when I’m trying to understand something. And I appreciate him so much because back at USC, it’s hard to find people who are helpful like that. People who care about the understanding of others, despite not having more time to study for themselves. At USC, engineering students can be helpful but they always put their understanding in front of other people’s (myself included). So I was actually pretty shocked when Austin was explaining things in class for me. But more importantly, through him I’ve learned about taking care of other people even if that person can’t give you anything back. It’s a very selfless quality that he has and it’s an amazing trait to emulate 🙂
He wants to be an RA for Georgia Tech next semester and I can totally see him doing that because he likes taking care of people. And I hope that he becomes one so others can see how much of a big brother he is!